previous post contained self-loathing and well, yes it was emo. got rid of it anyway because there are better things to talk about (: i still loathe myself but well, i'm trying to keep my mind off it and stop feeling lousy 24/7.

a haircut, and two more piercings yesterday. my hair's shorter and more layered than i expected it to be (well when will people learn how to look at pictures?!) but it will grow i guess, the only problem now is the parting x) it's kinda annoying. oh, my ear hurts D: there's this dull throbbing pain and my whole right ear is stiff and um, yeah it hurts. so now it's off to sleeping on my left side again. did i mention that i think the guy who pierced my ear is kinda cute? :3 and so is this other guy who offered his assistance XD well there's something about the people working there, they like to scare me to get me to relax. well i was already cool so they needn't joke about such things x_x;;

moving on~ my mind can't really do work in the day, so on sunday i practically wasted the day taking screen captures of girugamesh's PV! i actually only wanted to post up a few caps here to advertise, but i got carried away in trying to capture the facial expressions, body posture, emotions and power 8D it was a lot of tedious work capping them and then resizing them and changing the colour quality then putting them all together alright @_@;; just look at it anyway!

{ OWARI TO MIRAI SCREENCAPS COLLAGE CLICK! }

and if you think they're awesome, watch it {HERE!} they are yet another awesome indie band that i've fallen in love with (purely for the music may i add). Owari To Mirai is a effing cool music video (and their first too!). they produce really good music *_* more PV caps on other artistes coming soon, but im pretty picky about which frames i cap and want to keep, so i usually spend a lot of time and that means i'll do them when i'm bored or just unproductive (:

ah, i NEED to get the zippo lighter, by april latest. i've scouted around whenever i've got the chance to, but never saw one that made go 'OMG THAT'S THE ONE'. there are some really cool designs, but so far none that i think reita will really like or suit his taste... so i really really hope the perfect one pops up soon! and i don't mind the cost. $100, $200 or $300 whatever, if that's the one i'm certain of getting it for reita, i'll pay. because i simply love this guy so much 8D whoever doing the shipping better not fuck up man.

yerr i forgot to mention that i'm damn proud of my new layout yo! (though it's different from how i expected it to turn out initially) but my tagboard is being an ass.

my parents aren't talking to me. know what? fuck you, my sons and daughters.

i can't believe i have to humor people even when i feel like shit?! this is so sick it's funny. it's not like i can tell them to stfu or gtfo even if i feel like doing so, 'cause that's plain selfish. k, so what am i complaining about.

i've been wondering, if i had only 24 hours to live, what would i do? (assuming i had the power to do whatever i wanted to do) well, a couple of things.

firstly being the most important, i'd fly to japan, find reita and tell him how much i love him and i'm sad cause i don't wanna go as i'm carrying so much regrets away with me. then i'll kiss him (cause i can! 8D) before i come back here
and do all the things that make me happy one last time
then i'll do mean things to hurt all the people that matter in my life (just the few), OR erase their memories of me and whatever i said
followed by some alone time where i sit by myself and reflect on all the things i should have done but didn't do, the things i did but shouldn't have, think about the person who i've always wanted to be but the person i've turn out to be instead,
and just die like that.

i hate children.

it's Charlotte! 8D i found this really cute picture of them and decided to make a banner just to spice it up a little, and i'm pretty happy with the outcome x) i watched this video of them giving a new year's message and they were taking turns to talk. at the end of the speech the rest would be clapping like spastic people and the one who just spoke will 'conduct' them and like signal them when to cut the clapping. (reminds me of a comment where miyavi did just that he was the only one XD) they ended up doing all this wierd stupid actions being all funny but ended up turning away to suppress their laughters and hide their faces lmao. i think touya's really cute! (second from right) and i wanna cut my hair like his~~~ :3 {CLICK HERE} but i'm not sure if i can pull it off because i'm not really one who's into styling hair. i'm too lazy for that 8D well i'll see after chinese new year; i'm kinda sick of my hair now and it's really annoying because after dyeing it back it's like all hard and feels gel-ish, no more like before the really soft and easy to wash hair, now it keeps getting tangled x_x ugh long hair.

REITAAAA~♥ T__________T <- random.

for the whole week right up to tonight i thought i was feeling moody, but no. i realised i'm upset. i wish that the people closest to me would fucking stop criticising me for the things i do.

it's 2007, noooooo.

anyway time for the infamous useless NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS that no one ever fufills! 8D

1)) xxxx reita(Gazette), make him my personal slave nanny, and make sure he looks after me.. etc etc etc etc etc. (the list would go on if i were to list down the things that concerns him XD)
2)) have kai(Gazette) to cook me my meals and ruki(Gazette) to do the dishes after that XD
3)) get shunsuke(bis) and aoi(Gazette) to stop smoking like 24/7 XD
4)) get shunsuke(bis) and uruha(Gazette) to stop drinking like 24/7 XD (shunsuke is terrible lol)
5)) get miyavi as my personal entertainer, and prolly dye my hair rainbow coloured like his 8D
6)) try all means and ways to make tenten(ex-kuRt) come back!!! D: (he withdrew from kuRt noooooo!!!)
7)) feed tsukasa(bis) healthy food so that he grows taller 8D *pats*
8)) get ancafe to bring me to NYAPPY WORLD XD
9)) get more alicenine pr0n from shou & hiroto XD
10)) put ribbons on wataru's(12012) hair 8D~
11)) make a sculpture of maya(LM.C) doing the *o* face
12)) keep all my favourite jrock indie bands stashed away in the closet before people find out that i'm hiding them.
13)) kill santa and all his stuupid flyin' reindeers cause he was useless on christmas.
14)) teach reita how to cook and uruha how to do the macarena! 8D~
15)) more reita lovin'~ *evil grin*

...all in the name of spongebob baby! fun, joy, peace and laughter 8D

anyway some 06 accomplishments:

% i'd like to announce that from october 06, i've been translating bis blog entries! and up till now, me and another girl from germany have translated 95 entries! YOSHHHHH! XD and still counting! next year i hope to translate more, a maybe even a little Gazette goodies x) i really, really, wanna work hard and do well for my japanese next year. i have to achieve my JLPT 2 CERT by the age of 17/18! o_o;;

% i worked for the first time (at a restaurant)! being paid feels so gooood~

% how i found out and got into awesome jrock in the summer of 06, and all the fangirliness that mostly was my source of nyappiness. (i sound deprived) they've become a big part of me, my motivation for doing things i really enjoy and pushing me behind when i feel down. it's amazing. other than that, the world is pretty much shit.

% still kinda sane after all i've been through (:

for the 3592836728392 things/persons/events/moments that contributed to my happiness someway or another, i'm thankful though they may be minor. there's so many other little things (that made me happy) to highlight but i can't list them down, but most of all i have to give myself a pat on the back for being so much stronger from last year (: (i was a wreck, and i probably still am, but not as bad XD) i'm proud of myself hee.

and so with that, let's close 2006 (:
ニャッピーニュウイアー皆！NYAPPY NUU YEAR EVERYONE! I LOVE YOU! (but not more than i love reita HURHUR~!:3)
LET'S KICK SOME ASSSSSSSS!

{ C }
the kind of girl who mopes around about stuff ALOT
& somedays on mute mode

A LEFT-HANDER WHO FEEDS ON JROCK :D

Is a caffeine addict, & doesn't mind giving up talking for good. With not much self-confidence to start with, her ugly teeth upset her a lot but she plans to do nothing about it. Cheap thrills include rainy days, graphic designing, writing & a little dosage of her jrock darlings. Can conjure up some really good shit in her mind sometimes, but has problems putting them onto paper and into reality. Overall an average kid who's neither here nor there in everything she does, & gets bothered by it sometimes. Has trouble finding her direction in life. Mostly negative and wishes to be more apathetic. Currently finding a way to start a new life in Japan, with a different name.

Still likes to talk to inanimate things like her stuffed penguin.

♥REITA,
just because.

MIYAVI ♥ Gazette ♥ An Cafe ♥ Alice Nine ♥ 12012 ♥ bis ♥ Due'le Quartz ♥ Sadie ♥ Girugamesh ♥ Luvie ♥ SCREW ♥ Viored ♥ Shoujo Lolita23q ♥ KuRt ♥ Deathgaze ♥ 176biz ♥ Ellegarden ♥ Exist Trace ♥ LM.C ♥ Orange Range ♥ Unsraw ♥ Juliadoll ♥ lynch. ♥ SerialNumber ♥ Suicide Ali ♥ Abingdon Boys School ♥ D'espairsRay ♥ SuG ♥ Ka-yu (Matsumoto Kazuyuki) ♥ RIZE ♥ Yokohama Charlotte Academy ♥ MUCC ♥ Black:List ♥ xTRIPx ♥ Dio, Distraught Overlord ♥ D ♥ Dir en Grey ♥ julius ♥ ENVY ♥

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